Episode 5 | I AM BROKEN (Pt. 2) – Suffering in Christ.

Today let’s talk about suffering… You might wanna brace yourself for this one.

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Phrase we learned today – Semantic Satiation

What happened to the 12 Disciples – Faith on Hill  

Transcript

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Um, they're arriving on time, they're setting up on time, they're they're making the environment whatever the environment needs to be looked. They they are taking care of business on time, they're they're organizing people on time, like everything is meeting timestamp by timestamp by timestamp by timestamp by timestamp. Everything under that SOP is flawlessly done, but they are missing one piece. I created that SOP, and I created that SOP to serve a very specific purpose, and if that person hasn't followed through with the purpose of the SOP and the purpose behind me doing events, and the purpose behind all this, then it's vanity. So I believe that's what our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ is explaining here. Yes, you used my name to practice these works. Yes, you used my name to cast out devils and they were cast out. Yes, you used my name to heal the sick. Yes, you used my name to prophesy, and the prophecies did come true. Yes, you used my name to do all these things, but you did not do the will of my father. You did not complete or come to the standard of the will of my father. So all of this stuff is done in vain.

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Welcome to the Broken Minds Podcast, a space for the brokenhearted to realize that they are actually broken and walking the journey out with Jesus Christ. If you wish to support this podcast, please share this episode with your friends and your family. And download the podcast on your favorite podcasting platforms. Also, support us monetarily using the links down below. Lastly, get plugged into our local community here in the DMV, Broken Creatives, a place where we network, connect, and collaborate with our fellow brothers and sisters in Christ Jesus. Use the links down below to join the community today. My name is Mercy, and this is the Broken Minds Podcast. Enjoy.

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This is the space between reality and a distant fantasy, the gap between torture in a safe space. This is limbo, y'all, and we should not be afraid of it. This is where the skeletons live. The fears that we have stuffed away, and the traumas that we dare not look at. As a believer in Christ, of course, I uphold the view that Jesus Christ paid for it all. He died on that cross for our sins, for all of our lies, all of our unforgiveness, our pride, and our hate. Jesus being a mere man, for he came to this world in the form of a man, he died for us. Yes, he died for you and me. But I don't think we truly grasp the weight of what he died for. And we cannot use our faith in Christ to say, okay, Jesus has covered it all, so now I can just ignore all of these things. No. Actually, that's far from the case. I find it ever so surprising that most Christians are uncomfortable to share heavy-hearted conversations. As if anything related to depression or sadness is, by their definition, demonic and of evil context. And I always love when people see the name of my company and are perplexed to say, why broken minds co. Why not healed minds co. And yes, these are real occurrences that I have faced. And this is why the company will forever be called Broken Minds Co. Why? Because it directly punches people in the face and reminds them of their broken heart and of their decaying mental state. Well, that's if their mental state is in fact decaying, to which I believe we are all struggling. But also, I wholeheartedly will say that Christians love to skip steps, so much so that most Christians absolutely would not be considered disciples by a biblical standard. And yes, I will explain later. But first, let me give foundational context before you get too offended. As Christians, we love to focus on the positive side of reality, and there's nothing wrong with that, there's nothing wrong with taking life from a positive view. There's absolutely nothing wrong with that. But are we doing that as if our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ did not get whipped to the point of blood gushing out and of broken bones? We love to talk about the land flowing with milk and honey, as if Peter did not hang himself upside down because he felt unworthy to die in the same manner as Jesus, being in context the rooted meaning for an upside-down cross. We love to share hope in the smell of flowers, as if Sodom and Gomorrah wasn't burned down to a crisp because of the city's immorality, as if Abraham did not grieve his only begotten son, the promised son, before he almost murdered him for the sake of God. As if Joseph was not betrayed by his own family and sold into slavery as an innocent man, and as if he was not falsely accused of serious sexual allegations, so serious that it landed him in prison, losing just about everything. Again, we laugh and jump for joy as if John the Baptist wasn't beheaded for no other reason except for sharing the soon coming of Jesus Christ and for baptizing people into repentance. And furthermore, we read this Bible as if Christ Jesus Himself does not make it ever so clear that not all of us will enter his eternal kingdom. And to make it even worse, when he spoke this, he was talking to his quote-unquote followers, his disciples here on earth. Referenced in Matthew 7:21 through 23. There's so many reasons why we should not ignore the pain and suffering of our faith. And I I haven't even mentioned Job yet. But I believe that story is just it's just too easy. And we always quote it over and over again, and maybe that's why the realness of our faith is fleeting us and has become so dull and of religious repetition. I'd even be so bold enough to say that we don't care enough to count the cost of proclaiming Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior, or maybe we have yet to really think about the weight of that sacrificial decision. There is a very real phenomenon, and I'm gonna link this down in the description of this podcast episode. Definitely go check this out. There is a very real phenomenon called semantic satiation. It's when you say something over and over and over and over and over again until it loses its meaning and potency of its effect. If you were to say the same phrase 20 times over, or a word 20 times, or you even if you said your name 20, 30, 50 times over, your brain actually becomes fatigued in the manner of activating those neural pathways that connect spoken thoughts to its meaning, thus forcing you to perceive it as a string of disconnected noises. I want to bring this up for this one reason. I all I think that we we view the vibe the Bible in such a way. We have all of these stories and all of these accounts of reputable people. Like these messages, scrolls, have been recorded through history, have been proven time and time over again, have been matched with other scrolls, have been these things have been source-sided and carried for thousands of years. This is the true word of God. These stories are true, they're not mere fantasies, these are real, these are real people, these are real situations, these are real. This is a real text. For you to go get groceries today, because I know you're listening to this podcast on the way to the store. That is how real the Bible is. So when we talk about accounts like the story of Job and Job himself, I want to use somatic sensation and reverse that to make this story a little bit fresher for your brain to grasp. So I want you to picture this. Out the blue, your whole family dies, your mother, your father, your brother, your sister, uncle, aunt, hell, even the dog kicks the bucket and just dies. All of your wealth immediately dries up, and your friends start to hate your presence. Life becomes so bad that even BGE cuts power from your house, and now all of your food is spoiled, and the deep freezer is about 12 hours from becoming food slush soup in that order. Oh, and to add insult to injury, while you're trying to cut the power back on, some random dude outside smokes a cigarette on your property, throws the bud on some dried grass in the heat of the summer, and now guess what? Overnight, your house burns down in flames. Oh, I wasn't done. Your insurance company. Oh, they say they're not gonna cover it. Not even a penny if it was brought back from extinction. Yeah, the penny is extinct, y'all. It's 2026. That's crazy. So now do you understand the story of Job. And now do you understand his grief when he says, Let the day perish which I was born, and the night that said, A man is conceived, let that day be darkness. May God above not see it, nor light shine upon it. Let gloom and deep darkness claim it, let clouds dwell upon it, let the blackness of the day terrify it. Let thick darkness seize it, let it not rejoice among the days of the year, let it not come into the numbers of the months coming from Job three, verse three to verse six. Life got so bad and so super quickly that Job had no other choice but to curse the day of his birth. So you might be wondering what was the whole point of this episode? The whole point of this episode is to not ignore the suffering and the pain of our walk with Christ. Meaning, the next time you hear a person who's on the brink of suicide, who's on the brink of ending their life, please do not deduce their pain to oh, he needs prayer, or oh, dude is going through a demonic attack. Stay away. And and and don't hear what I'm not saying. Yes, two things can be true. The person really needs prayer. The person needs prayer. And yes, this is also a demonic attack from the enemy. And hey, let's add let's add this into the pot. It might even be a test from God. That's a whole nother conversation for a whole nother episode. But let's just say in the context, this is an attack from the enemy. But also, we can search the scriptures and find that in the book of Job, Job, after losing everything, his family, his flocks, everything, everything he worked so hard for, we can probably say that he was a tad bit suicidal. I mean, we find in the Bible that he literally cursed the day of his conception, so you would venture to think that the only other thought of a man is to kill himself, right? If someone it openly admits that they wish they'd never been alive, don't you think that there is an alternate universe in which they believe that them being dead would have been better? Wouldn't you say that this is applicable to Job's situation when it comes to Job 3, 3 through 6? I mean, Peter he came to that conclusion in the New Testament. He crucified himself upside down because he felt that he was not worthy to die the same death that his Lord died in. My point being is that the concept of suicide is written in our Bibles. It might not be pretty or easy to hear about, but it is biblically represented. Now, it is not it is a hundred percent not morally acceptable, nor is it of God's design. But that's the same as polygamy, it is biblically represented through Solomon. Seven hundred wives? That's crazy. Although what it is not, it is not God's design, nor should we practice it. Before I had mentioned that most Christians absolutely would not be considered disciples of Christ by a biblical standard, and here's why. Here's my explanation. Because most Christians have not yet come to the end of themselves. Matter of fact, a good majority of Christians actually do not even practice the fundamental task of discipleship, and to go off on a tangent before I explain this, when we compare discipleship from the Bible and how Jesus walked and talked with his disciples, and how he showed his disciples, and how he rebuked his disciples. But when we compare that to discipleship in the church today, discipleship in the church today, I'm gonna be so very honest with you guys, it is absolute social fun. I'm not gonna lie, a lot of churches, because they have grown to such an extent and they're so large, they go to a group model, a groups model that you find discipleship within the groups, making a church of a hundred, three hundred, two thousand, five thousand, twenty thousand feel like a church of five to six to eight. And yes, that is an excellent model of discipleship, but it's the way that it is done that completely reeks. You know how it is done, and I can testify because I've done it before, unknowingly, not knowing the true weight of discipleship. It's done like this: you sign a form because you want to lead a group, they teach you on how to lead a social setting, how to open up a social setting, how to carry the energy in a social setting. They give you ideas of what you can do, of what group you can launch, and then you launch the group. You but being an uneducated in the biblical text, you being maybe freshly saved, or saved for a long time, but need but need that wise counsel, signed a form, and now you are head over others and discipling others in Christ Jesus. That's not discipleship, that's social fun, and there's nothing wrong with social fun, there's nothing wrong in leading a group, but when we talk about biblical discipleship, this is what we're talking about, Matthew 16, 21 through 28. From that time, all the scriptures are read from the ESV version, by the way. From that time, Jesus began to show his disciples that he must go to Jerusalem and suffer many things from the elders and from the chief priest and scribe, and be killed, and on the third day be raised. This is Jesus talking to his disciples, showing him, showing them, the disciples, what will eventually happen. And Peter took Him aside and began to rebuke him, saying, Far be it from you, Lord. This shall never happen to you. This should never happen to you. But he turned and said to Peter, Get behind me, Satan, you are a hindrance to me, for you are not setting your mind on the things of God, but on the things of man. Then Jesus told his disciples, If anyone were to come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul? Or what shall a man give in return for his soul? For the Son of Man is going to come with his angels in the glory of his father, and then he will repay each person according to what he has. But truly I say to you, there are some standing here who not taste death until they see the Son of Man coming in his kingdom. This is true discipleship. Jesus Christ is emulating true discipleship. Jesus looks at Peter, a disciple of Christ. Someone who walked with Jesus, talked with Jesus, someone who watched Jesus perform miracles. He walked on water. He saw Jesus multiply bread and fish into baskets of food. He saw signs, wonders, and miracles, and it finally comes to the point where Jesus wraps everything up. He wraps everything up in everything that Jesus has been teaching the disciples, and everything that he has been leading the disciples, in everything that he he comes to a conclusion. He retells his purpose statement, his thesis statement. This should never happen to you. I want to put myself in the in the in the shoes of Peter. After seeing all these miraculous miracles, after seeing all of this stuff, after being a a disciple. And then coming to this moment. And for him to die, and for him to suffer. That's my first point. I'm gonna break this down further. That's my first point. That is the weight of discipleship. From the side of someone who is a disciple and is discipling others, in this context, Jesus, he's discipling Peter. He's correcting Peter. He is rebuking Peter's rebuke over him. From the context of a person who's discipling, to the context of a disciple, someone who's receiving. This is what true biblical discipleship looks like. After all of this, after all that we have been teaching you, after all that we have Jesus walked with him. They slept in the same rooms. I'm talking about they slept in the same tents. They walked in the wilderness. Some of the t the they did everything together. And you see that relationship between discipler and disciple. That doesn't just grow out of thin air from a semester-based groups model. That that's not that doesn't grow like that. That grows over a lifetime of seeing someone who needs to be poured into and pouring into them. And that grows over a lifetime of noticing that you need to be poured into and finding someone to pour into you. That's true biblical discipleship. And finding someone who is eligible to disciple Jesus Christ. He is eligible to disciple because he is the one, the true. You have the scriptures. In the beginning was the word. John 1. Yes, you do have Jesus. Just like Pastor Philip Anthony Mitchell says, read the word for yeah, you do have Jesus to disciple you. But okay, let's just say for instance, we come from a mindset, okay, we don't physically have the Messiah, Jesus, right there next to us in the flesh. Well, let's break down the scripture. Jesus says, if anyone were to come after me, so that means if anyone were to want to be my disciple, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul? Jesus, he is telling us that in order to follow him, in order to be his disciple, you have to lose your life. You have to quite literally die. And this is why I said that very controversial phrase that made many, maybe it made you cringe. This is why I said that. This is why I said that most Christians absolutely would not be considered disciples by a biblical standard. And here's why. Because most Christians have not yet come to the end of themselves. Matter of fact, a good majority of Christians actually don't even practice the fundamental task of discipleship. The fundamental task of discipleship is not getting in small groups. The fundamental task of discipleship is not getting in small groups around a topic that you love. It's not doing life with each other. The fundamental task of discipleship is not encouraging one another. The fundamental task of discipleship is not do, it's not socializing. The fundamental task of discipleship is coming to the end of yourself. Yes, I did mention that discipleship, true biblical discipleship means doing life with somebody long term. That is the action of discipleship. But the the fundamental task of the end of discipleship, the the purpose of discipleship is to die to yourself. At least that is Jesus Christ's definition of the purpose of this. From Genesis to Revelation, it's sacrifice. From the Old Testament, you have to sacrifice animals to repent of your sins. In the New Testament, Jesus Christ became the sacrificial lamb. He died on the cross, and now we the veil has been torn. The entire book of the the entire Bible is sacrifice. So if the the entire Bible through and through is sacrifice, John the Baptist, sacrifice, Peter, sacrifice, Job, sacrifice. The city of Sodom and Gomorrah, sacrifice. Adam They wouldn't have ate that apple. We wouldn't have sacrificed so much. Don't you think that discipleship also involves a sacrificial life? Wouldn't you conclude that if me coming to Christ and me saying that prayer, or me feeling this motive, or me going up to the altar and doing these things, wouldn't you deduce that that means that now it's time to live according to the scriptures? And what do the scriptures say about this? Romans 12, ESV version. The title in my Bible or my e-bible on my phone, it literally says a living sacrifice. A living sacrifice. Wouldn't you know? In Matthew 16, 21 through 28, when he was talking, when Jesus was talking to Peter, he told Peter that you are focusing on the things of man and not of the will of the Father. Wouldn't you know? Romans 12 points out that going through this testing, this sacrifice, presenting our bodies as a living sacrifice, which is our spiritual worship, we may then discern what is the will of God. What is the will of God? We don't know. That's the funny part. We don't know what the will of the Father is. So the whole Bible is on this principle of sacrifice. So to bring this all back around, yes, I will openly admit that I have been depressed. I have been in a season of depression. And I am currently struggling with depression. I will openly admit that yes, I have attempted my life multiple times. I will openly admit that I have had nightmares, that I have had visions of people dying, and I've had visions of me being the reason why people were dying. I would admit that I did recite what Job recited. That I once did curse the day of my life. I will admit that in my past I was and still am, guess what? Broken. Because if I were to conclude that coming to Christ now makes me healed, and yes, it does, like I said, two things can be true. But if I were to conclude that coming to Christ makes me fully healed, and yes, it does, to point that out, yes it does, coming to Christ does make you fully healed. But if I were to conclude that it makes me healed, and now all of a sudden I have to forget all the reasons I'm broken, I have to absolutely store that stuff that smushed that deep down inside my brain, lock it up in chains, and say, Oh, yeah, I'm never going to encounter someone who's suicidal ever again in my life. No, we should not do that. Yes, Jesus Christ has freed you. You are no longer the old person that you were. You are no longer. I have a friend who has a beautiful testimony, and I'm going to ask them to be on the podcast so they can tell their testimony. But this person has made a complete 180. And many people go through a whole they go through a whole 360. You know, they have a bad, desolate lifestyle. They come to Christ, they're freed, and then boom, they don't fully understand the concept of discipleship. They don't fully understand the concept of the the the faith walk that I'm explaining to you, right? They don't fully understand these things, so they dip right back into their sin and boom, full 360. But this person, total 180, side to side. They're one and now boom. Completely, totally different. Not only is their mindset different, they're their how they perceive themselves is different, how they dress is different, how their glow is different, everything is different. Why? Because they came to the end of themselves. They took the old man, they submitted it to the feet of Jesus, and they said, I am going to pick up my cross and I'm going to follow him. This is what it means, this is what it represents. A few weeks ago, I had brought this up at Bible study, at my church's Bible study, and I'm like, I'm like, yo, when we think about these Christian yeast phrases and the in and all this stuff and the current climate of the church, we kind of just throw all these things around and we don't really understand the weight of these things. I'm like, when we read in Matthew 16, the Bible literally says that in order to follow Christ, we have to die. That is the whole purpose of baptism. That's what John the Baptist was doing. Matthew 3, ESV version again. In those days, John the Baptist came preaching in the wilderness of Judah. Repent, for the kingdom of God is at hand. For this is he who was spoken of by the prophet Isaiah when he said, The voice of one crying in the wilderness, prepare the way of the Lord, make his path straight. This is what John the Baptist was doing. John the Baptist was baptizing people into repentance. Verse 6 says, and they were baptized by him, John the Baptist, in the river Jordan, confessing their sins. But when he saw many of the Pharisees and Sadducees coming to his baptism, he said to them, You brood of vipers, who warned you to flee from the wrath to come. Bear fruit in keeping with repentance. And do not presume to say to yourselves, We have Abraham as our father. For I tell you, God is able from these stones to raise up children for Abraham. Even now the axe is laid to the root of the trees. Every tree, therefore, that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. And this same this same word is also retold in Matthew 7, where it says, Beware of false prophets who come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ravilish wolves. You will recognize them by their fruits. Are grapes gathered from thornbushes or figs from thistles? So every healthy tree bears good fruit. But the diseased tree bears bad fruit. A healthy tree cannot bear bad fruit, nor can a diseased tree bear good fruit. Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. Thus you will recognize them by their fruits. Now, there's something else that I said in the podcast way back in this episode, and I practically said that. Not all of those who follow Christ will make it. This is the scripture keeping in the tone of Matthew. This is the scripture that keeps me up at night. This is the scripture that makes me cringe. This is the scripture that if you are lukewarm and you read this scripture and you really conceptualize the scripture and not read it like the phrase that we learn today, semantic satiation. Not read it over and over and over and over and over again until it loses its meaning. No, let's refresh our memory. Refresh this. Matthew 7 21. Not everyone who says to me, Lord, Lord, will enter the kingdom of heaven. That is told by Jesus Christ. By your Lord and Savior. Not everyone who says to me, Lord, Lord, will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of my Father in heaven. Interesting. We saw that in Matthew 16. We saw that in Romans 12, and now we're seeing it in Matthew 7, 20 21. So 22 says, On that day many will say to me, Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and cast out demons in your name and do many mighty works in your name? And then I will declare to them, I never knew you. Depart from me, you workers of lawlessness. Thing to break down here, something to break down here. On that day, many will say to me, many will say to Jesus, they will cry out to their Lord, Lord, Lord. And get this. I picture this with somebody actually kneeling down. Because if they are crying down to the Lord, just imagine you go your entire life doing the works of Christ, doing all of this, and then you come to the end, and then you get that notice from Jesus Himself. That Lord, Lord isn't read as Lord, Lord. That Lord, Lord is read as Lord, Lord. Hear my cry. That's how that Lord Lord is read. It's not, it's not Lord, comma, Lord, how it, how it visibly seen in the Bible. No, it is a vicious outcry. Did we not prophesy in your name and cast out demons in your name, and do many m mighty works in your name? Here's something in context. They did all this in the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth. All these works. That means that they themselves, the same ones that Jesus claims are workers of lawlessness. In other translations, it says, you evil people, they are performing these works, they are performing these miracles in the name of Christ. But Christ Himself says that these works are lawlessness. How does that how does that work? How does that make sense? Because the name of Jesus Christ overrides what they do using the name of Jesus. That's how powerful the name of Jesus Christ is. Doesn't matter who uses his name, his name is that powerful. To put this in example, it's like if I were to create a system, if I were to create a system where in practice, we are organizing an event. Right? We're organizing an event, we're putting all these things and pieces together, and I create an SOP. An SOP is a standard operating procedure. Right? I create an SOP and I give it to somebody. It doesn't matter how often that person uses that SOP to organize events, and they actually do successful events. They're following the SOP, um, they're arriving on time, they're setting up on time, they're they're making the environment whatever the environment needs to be looked. They they are taking care of business on time, they're they're organizing people on time, like everything is meeting timestamp by timestamp by timestamp by timestamp by timestamp. Everything under that SOP is flawlessly done. But they are missing one piece. I created that SOP, and I created that SOP to serve a very specific purpose, and if that person hasn't followed through with the purpose of the SOP and the purpose behind me doing events, and the purpose behind all this, then it's vanity. So I believe that's what our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ is explaining here. Yes, you used my name to practice these works. Yes, you used my name to cast out devils and they were cast out. Yes, you used my name to heal the sick. Yes, you used my name to prophesy, and the prophecies did come true. Yes, you used my name to do all these things, but you did not do the will of my father. You did not complete or come to the standard of the will of my father. So all of this stuff is done in vain. That verse absolutely scares me. Because now I have to ask myself on a daily basis, am I doing this podcast in vain? Is this actually reaching people? Are people actually being blessed? And if people and if all those questions are answered and it's answered to be true, there's one other question still not answered. And sadly, that question won't be answered until the day that Jesus Christ returns. That question is okay, people hear this podcast and they enjoy it, they've been freed from it, they have they have identified traumas and they have identified root causes, and and they've been freed from traumatic experiences, and they no longer suffer from a broken mind, and they truly now realize a broken mind. But now the question is, is what I have done held to the standard of the will of God? Did I complete the will of God or even come close to it? And this is why I put this in practice. When I so in context, I'm a podcast producer, I encourage people and I do all the work on the back end to help people do this. And I actually have some launch podcasts that you guys should check out because these podcasts talk very similar to the stuff I'm talking about, very similar. Actually, matter of fact, it's actually by design that I want these podcasts that I launch to be very similar to this one. Why? Because of this very reason. I don't want to look at Jesus on the day of judgment and say that I have used your name to do a whole laundry list full of deeds, and I have missed out on the main purpose of it. I have not done the will of the father, and this is why I put into practice if anyone, even yourself, wants to launch a podcast under my company Broken Minds Co. I will literally send you a form, you will fill out that form, and you'll fill out all the things that you're excited about, the the title of the podcast, the meaning of the podcast, all this, but I will specifically ask you a question. What does this podcast serve in the kingdom? With your podcast launched and on air, how does this serve the kingdom? What problem are you solving? To what area of the will of the Father are you fulfilling or meeting the standard of? I will not launch any podcast, any show if you cannot answer that question confidently and convincing enough for me to take on your show. I don't care how much money you pay me. I don't care. There's something, and this is on a tangent. There's something about me that people do not understand. As a business personnel, I do business from the perspective of fulfilling the will of my father. Not of my earthly father, but of my heavenly father. I don't care how much money you flaunt in my face. If I don't feel a peace about it, and if I don't feel that you want to continue building the kingdom of God, I'm not doing it. I don't care how broke I am, I'm going through a season right now, even. Don't care. Not taking the project. Don't care. I'm not taking the project. Because if it's not to the will of my father, I don't want it. I don't even want to look at your face. Love you as a brother and sister in Christ. I don't want to look in your direction. Because if I look in your direction, you're going to you're going to convince me of things, you're going to convince me of other things, and I'm going to divert from the path of my father. Just like when Jesus, when he was young, when he was lost in the crowd at twelve years old. And after a time, Joseph and Mary was like, Jesus, they came back. Where did they find him? In the temple. Why? Because he was about his father's business. And this is the reason why Broken Minds Co. is called Broken Minds Co. This is the reason that we have a desire to let people have a moment to realize that they are broken and walking the journey out with Jesus Christ. This is why I want to push you, tug you to go into yourself and to go into the depths of yourself and to pull out that little insecure being. Unlock his chains, unlock her chains, and be like, hey, today I'm going to address you and all of your trauma. I'm going to forgive the people you refuse to forgive. I'm going to apologize to the people that you refuse to apologize to. I'm going to let go of the people that you refuse to let go of. I am going to practice Matthew 16. And I'm going to say, in order for me to follow Christ, because this is what I want to do in my life, it is time now for me to destroy my old life. So, no, I don't sit on this podcast and reflect on my suicidal life and just for all of us to sit here and sob on the internet. No, I don't do that. I sit up in this podcast and I talk about my suicidal endeavors because I want you to address the insecure version of you and to address all that trauma and to take it and to submit it at the feet of Jesus and to pick up your cross and follow Christ. Because that is what he has called you to do if you want to be his disciple. And that is the only way you can follow him. That is it. So this is the message for today. May it be heavy, may it be light. Don't know. All I know is that if you want to get connected with this podcast, if you want to support this podcast, look, this is an ongoing and growing thing. This costs money. This is not free. This costs money. So if you want to support this podcast, you can do so by clicking the link in the description. Donate to our ministry. Donate to this. From your donation, it is quite literally launching other people's podcasts. And I actually want you to go listen to those podcasts. Go listen to Jules Smith on her podcast on one accord. Where they are literally diving into the Bible, pulling up biblical context to compare and contrast between the time of the Bible and the current church climate of today. Go listen to Stephen Lung on his podcast, Uncut Demeanor. Where he is literally having real, raw, and uncut conversations. Stephen Lung is talking about the same things that I'm talking about in even from deeper perspectives. From his story. So this is not just an isolated thing. Like this is a whole community. This is not just one isolated podcast. We are a whole community devoted to dying to ourselves publicly, literally publicly, and following Christ Jesus publicly. And if you want to support and follow those podcasts, support and follow those podcasts, donate to those podcasts. Because from that seed, you will not only help me, you will help me help them, and you will help them help you help others. And that's what this does. So coming down to the end of this episode, yes, I said all that in announcements, and you should follow those and tap into the link down in the description. Get plugged in with everything that's going on. If you are a Christian creative, you have an aspiration, a goal to be financially set free, to live out your journey, funded by your creative endeavors. Tap the link down below to join our community. I'm not even joking. This is a local community. We are going to meet in person. We have an event coming up. It's going to be a limited, limited networking event. Only about 10 to 15 people. We're gonna come in person together, and we are going to discuss, share our resources, our creative endeavors. We're going to we are it's a show and tell. We are going to network, and this is not a social event. We are going to come because we want to further out what we are doing for the kingdom. So jump in the link down below, get plugged in, get in that WhatsApp group chat. I want to hear your creativity, I want to share your creativity, I want you to grow in your creativity through Christ Jesus. But as we come to a close, I do want to pray. And as we bow our heads, let's receive. Thank you for all the things that you've done for us, Lord Jesus, for giving us fresh breath every single day, for anointing our tongue, Lord Jesus, to talk to other people, for giving us visions and dreams so that we can bring those things out. For giving us the knowledge of what true discipleship, true biblical discipleship is, and how to walk that out, and how to be a disciple and how to disciple others. Lord God, I am praying for those who demand discipleship. They don't want it, they demand it. Their life demands it. Lord Jesus, that they will seek discipleship, that they will seek brothers and sisters in Christ that will lead them through this walk, Lord Jesus, that they will be a strong tower and they will be able to disciple others through this walk. Lord God, I thank you and I praise you for leading all of us through this day. Give us an amazing evening, afternoon, wherever the present time is allocated. Lord God, I bless you for the people who are listening to this. And I thank you for everything. In Jesus' name. Amen. Come back next Saturday at 8 a.m. for another episode. We're going to be diving into more of I Am Broken, a series that might be a little hard and a little harsh, but it's so needed. But I will see you next time. Peace.